Hungry

It's already way past midnight but I'm still wide awake here, thanks to the revision week where most people's biological clock has gone totally upside down. I tried to sleep earlier so that I can wake up and study more under the sunlight but still to no avail. Just couldn't stop tossing here and there last night until almost 4am i think.

And in this darn Winter, though not very cold (sometimes even warmer than in Autumn) I find myself constantly feeling hungry. Seriously why is my digestive system/ metabolism so efficient? and not me myself who in fact, should be?!  When my stomach started growling again (so loud that it broke the silence in my room when i was trying to revise), I just couldn't help not questioning myself what did i fed myself just now and was it because the amount was too little?

Sometimes I believe that I should put all the blame on this cold season but sometimes I thought it might be my PMS as well. This isn't good. At this crucial time when I should be concentrating fully on my revision for the upcoming end-of-semester exams, can't just my stomach be a little considerate and not be fussy about what I feed it? It's so annoying because I would suddenly google recipes of Malaysian food. I was so desperate I really wanted to make Penang curry mee the other day, just that I don't know where to get my favourite tau-poks (tofu puffs?).

Was preparing some roasted ham sandwich just now to cure my bizarre midnight hunger pang and then suddenly my Cypriot housemate came in to make something as well. Had a good chat with him and realised that I'm not the only person suffering. He sleeps at 6am and wakes up at 4 something in the afternoon, which is when it's getting dark already LOL like a vampire!

Ah well we'll worry about that later I'll just eat more rice in the mean time i guess. I just hope I can have a productive week and may I excel in both modules next week.

I'll probably blog something in between those study breaks? (not like I'm gonna study non-stop the whole day) and update more often after exams for sure.

Oh before I forget, happy new year people!
P.S I owe you a lengthy blogpost about my 2012 review/ 2013 resolutions :)

Ravings before leaving

Last week was pretty happening.

A few buddies came over to Penang island and I sort of became an amateur tour guide. It was really fun and tiring at the same time, but most importantly I was happy to actually have some serious food trip before flying off (man, I cannot follow boys for food how can they eat so much hahaha they're like black holes!) Then, Visa application finally done (thanks to the delayed cas letter -.-) Then off for some shopping where I bought the largest amount of stationery ever in my entire student life. It feels kind of nice, getting the chance to throw everything I want into the shopping basket. Anyway voila, most things to be ticked off the list are all over.


Now once again, I'm struck by the truth of the world's most cliche saying- that time really flies. I took a quick glance at the calendar a few seconds ago and realised that I'm about to leave my hometown in one week's time. Like, 7 days left in Malaysia.（ﾟдﾟlll）

It's not my first time leaving home. This time, however, is going to be so much different compared to the last time I left home. I am going to leave my family, temporarily migrate and settle down in a foreign land full of strangers with thick accents. In fact, I've already found out a few ang moh's that's going to be staying in the same student house as me.

Ah, that awkward feeling when you stare into that person's fb profile, convincing yourself "oh hey this person's my future housemate. oh I hope he/she's a nice person to stay with.."

*inhales* Keep your mindset open, Grace. It's going to be an amazing year ahead! *YOLO.

Forced to play Club Penguin's cards with baby sister. It's extremely lame and boring for me, but she loves it. So, oh well, why not.

Somehow I have a really mixed feeling right now. And that's not a good sign.

I'm saying this because God knows when am I coming back to Malaysia again. Probably next year's summer break but still, I need to friggin wait for 9 months or so. Mum and Dad promised to visit me during winter, but they aren't going to bring any of my sisters along :(

Wonder if I would bawl like a baby the minute I bid farewell to my family at the airport. Hmm. Big chance I reckon.

Lately

 It's been a while since we all gathered to sing Karaoke. During those high school years, it used to be our one favourite thing to do together as a group.

Not all of us were present that day. Soon Yee went back to Singapore already while Wen Hui's still enjoying winter in Australia.

Could vividly remember that we used to go Red Box very often for all the birthday parties, farewells, primary school reunions and all those *coughs* get-to-know-the-chungling-boys hang outs. \(≧▽≦)/

LOL at our 那些年

And then there was this hilarious moment..when we realised that almost all of the songs we chose were those used-to-be-so-popular hits years ago when we were merely some lala high school girls. Guess what, the first thing that popped out on my mind was all the K-pops, particularly Big Bang's.. Which they don't have much choices there! Not even my favourite BLUE

(as if i know how to pronounce every word accurately haha)

We're extremely outdated! Haven't been updating ourselves with the latest Chinese pop songs.

At the blink of eye, we're now 20 years old (I know right..can't believe I'm that grown up. I mean, take a look at my T-shirt haha) Yet our friendship bond is still so strong I don't even know how to describe. 

As sticky as superglue? (´∀｀)♡ 

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My personal updates:

Ever since I came back from KL, I haven't been doing much. You can't say that I'd wasted my time but it definitely had been boring, on the whole. 

You have heard of the song 'When will my life begin' in Tangled, haven't you? Go watch it on youtube and you will get a clear picture of how I spent my week.  The song's literally reflecting my situation!

-I did some paintings and also DIY greeting cards

-Watched cooking shows on AFC, started collecting recipes from my mother & carried out experiments on some serious cooking (so I can be a homy cook when I'm staying alone)

-Read Murakami's novels and some articles from Times, attempted to brush up my English

-Downloaded numerous Running Man episodes, laughed so so much from watching that I think my neighbours might have wondered who's the crazy girl next door

-Watched Studio Ghibli's latest animation 'From Up on Poppy Hill'. Mad love! ♥

-Went out with different group of friends, ate a lot of good food (tummy is more than contented)

-Had a few family gatherings, met many of my paternal relatives, good food again (so well fed)

-Spent some quality time with my granny and tried to explain to her how the UK map look like

-Brushed my hair like Rapunzel did in Tangled (haha not funny) 

etc etc etc......  well, boring. ╭(╯ε╰)╮

 (from weheartit.com)

Howeverrrrrrr.... *drumrolls* Just when I was worrying about how to spare my time for the next whole month, suddenly I found out that my schedule is fully packed with exciting events! The power of 'Secret' perhaps. Heh ╰（￣▽￣）╭

 

 2 spontaneous holiday trips: Cruise & makan trip this weekend, Hongkong & Macau trip next week; KL for medical check up, contracts & visa application... but most exciting of all

I'm going to WORK!! 

haha! but i bet you'll laugh when you find out what's my part time job. The pay isn't attractive at all to a big spender like me and it's nowhere related to my future career. Oh well, I just wanted to help out. Plus, since it's kind of fun. Once in a life time!

Hello Kitty Nerd Specs

Oops just realised that I haven't been updating for more than a week already. (okay not 'just' realised, I knew this all the way) argh how to gain loyal readers like that? :/

Felt so guilty when I listed out the topics I wanted to share with you guys yet still not being posted up.

Let's see.. it's already May now and I didn't even talk about my 20th birthday celebration. -.-
So many events last term I didn't even blog about any of them! Worst thing of all, I found out that I still have zillions of beautiful Japan trip photos last year yet to be shared. fml.

Huhuhu one of my favourite birthday present :)  Kawaii-des!!
Thank you Chir Wey and Hazel ♥




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Study Leave has already started which means I don't need to go for official lessons anymore. Just a few more extra class and I shall be totally prepared for my A2!

Can't wait anymore.
Done with my application for intercollegiate halls accommodation last week and just found out that staying one night in London would cost me at least 24.7 pounds (for a single room). That's like you can have a deluxe super single room with en suite bathroom in other parts of UK. oh well.

I am so near already.
Just one more step, Grace, one more... *pulls socks up*

4 years

is not a short period.



Things changed, people changed, the way your heart feels changed.
oh, and my hair grew longer.

It's really amazing to realize how much time could do to make us grow in just a short time.
:) Have a great Leap Day! After all, we can only have the next leap year 4 years later.





and how my life 4 years later look like depends on what I do starting today.

being appreciated is the best

So it was the forever alone day everyone had been joking about.
Or the Single Awareness Day (S.A.D). lol!

Anyway, Happy Valentine's Day to all sweet couples on earth :)

I am not really celebrating because oh well, hmm, simply because I have no date. boo :P
But still, I'm happy because our Interact Club earned quite a lot for our annual Valentines day Sale! *kaching kaching* haha! people can really become irrational consumers when it comes to love. Seriously, it's not like it's cheap also. lol.

Hmm. Valentine's day has always been the pathetic day of the year which I seriously feel like sleeping throughout the whole day. Since I can get envious of other people really easily, I might as well just avoid myself from seeing people with big bouquets of roses and teddy bears while I walk with my single girl friends, pretending that I don't give a damn and that I'm contented with my friends accompanying me.

It's really sad I would say.

I know we always say things like: Valentine's day is not the only day to show your affection to your loved ones and also not the day to just celebrate with your lover. / It doesn't matter whether you have a date or not, it's the day to spread out love to your friends and family too! / Single rocks! / etc.

.... bullshit :(  
You only say that because you are lying to yourself so that you feel better.
It's just like the story of a fox saying that the grapes up there are sour and not juicy just because it couldn't reach them.

Yes, I am happy with all my family and friends around me. but at this age, who wouldn't want someone special to be there with them? seriously who? I doubt.



I felt a little bit emo and I actually complained to my buddy, Nick about it. Sorry if I bugged you too much :) I mean, there were so many girls in our school that received roses this morning and why am I not one of them? Don't I deserve something too? I thought.

and then I started to calm down a bit and accepted the fact again that I need to wait longer for my turn. I actually started doing my homework and stuff happily like usual again :D  *high recovery rate*



and then..
surprises came.

*forgot to take photos of them. super cute and delicious cupcakes

Thank you so much for doing all these for me.

Thank you from the bottom of my heart simply because you let me realized that I am being appreciated and I am worth your time, effort and courage.







 :) You made my day.

I just love all these shitz

 

Currently so addicted to CN BLUE's 'Love Girl'. The song's just so cute and catchy that I can't resist playing it over and over again. L.O.V.E Love~~

haha it's like my prep time music now.

Hmm haven't been updating for a week. As busy as usual, I can now see myself in the future as a workaholic. I'd really love to rest but whenever I start to rest and do nothing, something will just pop up in my life and tada, I've got myself another task. It's never ending. I can never have my own sweet time doing nothing for long. There's always something to be done that finds me in life. Or vice versa. Either way.

And when I say work I mean things like Extra Curriculum Activities, not studies. But wait, I don't neglect my studies okay? In fact, I sort of enjoy revising for exam. lol.

If you know me well, it's obvious that I am not those kind of people that like to nerd in their rooms. Since long ago, I am already actively involved in lots of fun ECAs. I really enjoy myself, especially when you get to lead people. But hey, don't misinterpret, I am NOT a dictator and I don't fancy power. I am neither Hitler or Kim Jong Il, thank you. C'mon la, I'm like the sweetest boss ever :P

I am just naturally passionate in working with people. However, I don't really like following people even though I can be a very successful follower. I am a control freak, i would say. I hate it when my ideas and plans got rejected just because I don't get the say in the board. Doesn't it suck when you know that you can actually do better but you just have to give face to the boss? It sucks even more when it's YOUR IDEA and it becomes his/her credit. F*cking frustrating. 

I am usually confident at my own ability and I know that I can achieve certain things I want in life. That's why I can proudly say I've achieved quite a number of things in KTJ. However, once I am given the post and power, I kind of chicken out. It's just ironic that I used to crave for leading the whole team but once I get to do that it does not taste as nice as expected.

It's not an easy job, seriously. You get more pressure because you have more responsibility to shoulder. And then I start to think why was I so ambitious and now I get myself more and more 'ma fan'.  I could just live a simple and happy life but WHY? Why do I have to do all these when everyone else just eat and sleep. I know why. It comes to a conclusion, a simple word: Passion.

I love doing all these even it's tiring. I know that next time in my career life, I will definitely do the same. Haha can you imagine me working in the bank next time? I bet I will be like a crazy woman working OT until late night and keep on grabbing the opportunity to be promoted. Realistic much? Oh well, you can judge me anyway you like but I really love all these shit. Not the power but the satisfaction of gaining something in your life. <3

It's mandarin time!

heh allow me to use mandarin for this post.
I have a sudden urge to use my mother language. this post only lah.

and oh, if you'd like to know what I'm talking about but you don't understand chinese, there's always google translate for you :) though their translation sucks, you can at least get a picture of what I'm writing about.

嗯 好久没有用华语了，觉得自己的母语都快生锈了吧？
除了谈天之外，老实说，真的没有多少机会用到华文来书写。好怀念以前华文老师给的作文功课啊！还有每年的作文比赛，都是令人期待的。

可是，我除了写作文，其他的其实都不感兴趣。告诉我谁会喜欢文言文啊?! 可能有些人会喜欢，可我就绝对不ok。讨厌，就是这些害我的SPM华文考到不满意的成绩。不过也算了吧，who cares?

其实我为什么会心血来潮地想用中文呢？毕竟我的部落格是看不懂中文的读者居多。没有真正的原因；可能是太闷了，想打打字，看自己的汉语拼音退步了多少。哈哈

不过，这倒让我想起为什么当初会将自己原来的部落格改头换面，除了网址改了，语言也改了。表面上好像只是要重新出发的感觉，但认识我的你，可能猜得出吧？里头应该还有其他原因。哎呦，算了。

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长大了。我们一个两个，都长大了。
从前天天形影不离，口水多过茶。天真，烂漫。啊，会突然想起那些快乐的时光，是件多么幸福的事。老实说，我觉得很多以前的回忆快要不见了。不知道是我的问题，还是时间洗涤一切的缘故。你会又这种感觉吗？那种隐约记得，却感觉不到的画面。
哈哈，忽然觉得自己好深。

朋友们各又各的路要走。还记得当年（其实是几年前而已哈哈）我们都在烦自己以后的路将要怎么走。告诉我，当年说过的梦，我们多少个又实现到？

还记得有人说过要当律师，而且还一口咬定不会随便换掉从小的志愿。可是到了成绩放榜后就改变了。而且还选一个自己从来就没想过的课程。哈哈。噢，还记得有个人跟我有着一样的志愿，还说要一起合伙呢。结果两个人都纷纷打消了念头。＊笑＊然后，还有人说不知道要做什么，干脆去卖花好了。哈哈哈。结果？从卖花到牙医，从牙医到医生。哈哈挺以你为傲的！

很多东西，可以在短时间内改变。你不要问我为什么突然会放弃梦想，这是很难回答的。看清了现实吧也许？ 我终于接受世上有很多的变数，很多的没想到。

就像小时候常常怪爸妈开空头支票，说要带我去哪里玩却在最后一分钟说不去了。但我懂了。同样的道理，只不过运用在不同的情况上。


我终于彻底了解为什么人家说，许下的诺言就是欠下的债。我也终于领悟到，如果有人没有实现他对你的诺言，不要问为什么。我们别计较，我们没有必要去讨债。 不是因为他忘记了，而是因为他做不到了。

人最好不要停留在一个地方太久。人生，就是要一直前进。偶尔回首，但别再眷恋过去。我们始终不能回去。那又奈何？ 说起来有点残忍，但有什么办法，你我始终不是过去的我们了。

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不过倒是有一些例外。有些所谓的好朋友，是就算多久没见面，相逢时绝对不会冷场，那些老样子不知怎么的，都会钻出来，话题永远聊不完。




我发觉只有华语，才能够让内心中的那个思韵再次跑出来。只有这个语言，我才能赤裸裸地，将最真心的我呈现出来。你说对不？

所以，结论：我不会选择嫁给不懂华语的男人，哪怕只是当一天的男朋友。不可能。I will not compromise on this. 但， 好怕有一天会打消念头 ＊笑＊
 

She's back with short hair.

Yes, I know I know.

My blog had been sleeping for so long. Tsk tsk tsk.

I know it's getting boring around here. Because you know what, my life is so BORING as well.

Anyway, I've started form 6 since the 10th of May.

Sadly, or should I say happily =] , I had to go back to my previous school for registration while waiting for the better to come.

If I fail to get any scholarships in the end (keep my fingers crossed), I guess by then I will accept and indulge myself into the STPM life because after weighing the pros and cons of f6, I found that it was not as bad as I thought at first. In fact, f6 can be very cool too. It's just the matter of your perspective.

And of course, there's one saddening part, which I was so brave that I could endure,

I NEED TO CUT MY HAIR SHORT AGAIN.

as in, short short one okay? less than 5cm as usual.

Shorter than edna mode's. T.T

*Heartbroken*  

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 I guess I'm just way too free to insert all the dots in this post. 

A Brand New Start

Yes, as you can see, my dear bloggie has gone through some transformations.

I've changed my blog's url, template, colours, and the most important thing - language. It's a little bit weird for me to post in english, but I guess as time passes I'll be able to get used to it. So will you, readers out there :) By the way, I'm so into typing in English because I don't need to figure out the chinese spellings a.k.a 汉语拼音 when I blog anymore! ooohyeah~

Perhaps this change might sadden some of my usual blog fans readers, but I'm really sorry because I've made my decision. Ah it's time for me to dance sorry sorry. *do the wash-hands-move*

A few more days to go and I shall be transforming into an 18-years-old adult. With the end of my high school life and also the result slip of SPM, I'm now proceeding to a brand new starting point. That's the main reason for me to do all these changes. We all used to share a lot of miraculous days together. Sadly, we have to separate to different paths now. The past will only keep on revolving in my heart as bittersweet memories. Well, time to grow up. I guess?

So, let's change the topic. (I don't want my 1st english post to be soooo nostalgic. hee.)

Hmm.. AHA! An introduction.

Some of you who don't really know me well might be confused while looking at the blogger's name. Grace Mode. Yea, I know it sounds funny. =.=


First and foremost, Grace is my christian name though I'm not a christian actually. It seems like a trend to most of the chinese for naming their children like that. Yet to me, it's not official as the word Grace is not in my IC. My parents just call me for, umm, fun? haha

But HELLO? I've been Grace since the Jurassic era my dear. Just because I seldom introduce myself to the others in that name, it doesn't mean that I'm not Grace. Although it used to irritates me when my mum called me like that, but ya, I've now accepted it. In fact, I'm lovin it :D

I bet you've seen this funny-looking lady in the animated Disney movie - The Incredibles. I find her very cute indeed when I first saw her in the movie.

Back in form one, my classmates told me that I look like her. Obviously, her height is a classic one. Plus her hair style.. and also her harry potter glasses. hahaha! I think you can imagine how I look like during that time. One word: MODE!

And yup, that's how I got the nickname. I don't mind having nicknames, I mean, nicknames as cute as MODE. Friends of mine especially all the ji-muis always address me as 'Mode' or 'Modey'. In fact, they have forgotten how to call me in my actual name. LOL

So... after telling my long grandmother stories, I just want to say,

by combining the two, which is Grace and Mode, I get the best of both worlds.

Family and friends
embedded in my new blogger name :)

Thus my brand new start shall have you with me.

PS. Looks like I'm GAGA-ing in the left pic. lmao!

Let us keep on moving, carrying our precious things along,
when everything else had faded into memories.